Not even close

I'm looking at my "bucket list" in my first post and I'm not anywhere near of even doing one thing on my list =( My life is shiatz right now....just had an argument yesterday with my bf which doesn't even make any sense! I haven't seen him since yesterday! I ended up chilling with my sis and her peeps from work and only got in at 6am! I ended up sleeping over my sis's place. I am so confused right now...I really thought my bf and I will never get to this point where we can't even argue "properly"....we use to take the time to talk to each other and hear each other out...now we don't even talk to each other and just distance ourselves...to those who are actually reading this....i'm actually writing in a blog for myself..it's my way of venting and i'm not writting to impress =p some of my thoughts may be wack to you but like I said this is for me.....I am tired of always thinking about what other people are thinking of me....now i'm tired to even type =(

Love the one you're with......

I was curious to find out what the hype was all about with Emily Giffin's "Love the one you're with" and was utterly disappointed.....without going into the details of the book (I don't want to be the rain on a parade!), I thought that I could find answers in this book......I've always thought that when you are in a relationship with the right person, you shouldn't have to work hard at it....hahahahah i just woke up from a dream one day and realized that relationships whether it's with the right person or the wrong person, it will always be a work in progress...even with picture perfect relationships, things aren't always what they seem! I know of couples who have been together for a decade and have not moved to the next step in the relationship, engagement =p and have broken up =( One dude I know who went out with his girlfriend for 12 years, told me that although he was no longer feeling like she was the "one", he stayed with her because of the "history"...finally he decided to break up with her because he felt that they had "grown up" and were in different directions....this goes to show me that anything can happen in a relationship, ANYTHING! Which brings me to question whether you should love the one your're with......I really feel that you love the one you're with IF you've dealt with your feelings and are 100% into the relationship.....if you are thinking about past loves or current attractions then NO you shouldn't love the person you're with because you are married to that person.....lol....i know it seems like I am not making any sense...maybe i'm not.....but at this point in time, I feel like I make sense.....

John Mayer truck photo shoot =p

Sunny days........

wow summer is here =) the weather is hot and sunny in toronto! although we are having heat alerts, I am really enjoying this heat...I can think back on our hella cold winters and laugh it off =p Yesterday my sister, my friend, and I tried to get "last minute" concert tickets to see John Mayer and CC. Unfortunately we were not that great at hustling and did not score any good tickets within our price range =( so what did we do instead???? PHOTO SHOOT with John Mayer's trucks! lol....I will post the pics up soon...you would think that at the age of 28,29 & 30, we would have already purchased concert tickets online, the "proper" thing to do! Age to us is "nothing but a number" so they say......I think I am still going through denial and sadness that I am now 30...ewwwwwwww....30....thirty...typing and looking at the screen and seeing 30 is depressing...lol.....People say the thirties is the new twenties, if only it were true =p For me, being in your thirties right now is a major transition...you have some friends who are "settling" down, getting married and having babies, then you have the friends who are single and are still finding "the one", and then lastly you have the friends who do have significant others but do not want to settle down. In the midst of all this, here I am.....where do I fit in? I do want the marriage and the babies but not just yet...I don't feel I am ready...I still feel like I have alot to do...but then again "Time is ticking" lol.....not only do I feel pressure from myself, seeing friends and cousins setteling down, I feel the pressure from my parents, family, and friends. What is a girl to do...eerrrr I mean what is a woman to do?

First post =)

I've always been meaning to create a blog and I finally signed up! yayyyyyyy! My life is not that exciting but I do have alot to say. Turning 30 has been a breaking point for me. It's either I do things or don't. As my mama said, "stop talking and just do it!". To start of this first entry, I decided to list all the things that I keep saying I'm going to do but haven't done yet. I am determined to get through this list by the time I'm 35! lol...here goes (in no particular order) -Masters in Public Health -Travel back to Europe 2009 -Visit the Philippines and learn about my roots -Get a tattoo -Be able to do an ollie =p -Take photography and launch a card biz This list will be constantly growing and by 35....I will accomplish what I said I would do =p